Friday, May 3, 2019

Fears, Family and Faith


The family at Tai Pak, Hong Kong, 1985.


“Aadmi ka dharm hai sukhi rahna”, said our family Doctor once… And another one, had said, “Happiness is relative”… They tried. My parents also tried really hard to give a good life and upbringing to their kids. But do they seem ecstatic, here? We had money but did we have happiness? Life happens to us according to our core-beliefs, they say... In my childhood, I schooled myself all the negative messages about having money… subconsciously, I gathered that other people, even those from similar background did not like us enjoying… I guess, that must be true for many sensitive people. Only, now, we are learning that it was my own expectation and fears that made me feel guilty about even existing… But the inner voice kept giving hope…

The other point was that people were after getting what we had… They were ready to be violent at the slightest opportunity… I wanted nothing to do with such responsibilities, although, I felt extremely fortunate about having such blessings as my family… Yes, I appreciated the money when my family and I were sick and needed treatments… I knew, money was good for that. I often thought to myself, that we would have preferred to have our father with us rather than the wealth he left us… after so much hard-work and suffering burnout, which in any case, got criminally squandered because, someone got jealous of my little brother’s inheritance…

Yes, happiness is relative (and even though relatives can exert a lot of emotional violence- wink, wink) it is our duty to be happy… Let’s remind ourselves from time-to-time, what someone has beautifully put, “These mountains that you are carrying on your backs, you were only supposed to climb them”.

Learning now, to have faith, to allow people to show their good side… to be conscious of our breathing and allow things to happen… We have come here to accept and love ourselves… Thank you for reading. Wishing everyone, lots of love & luck.